I am doing this 31 days of BPD challenge because of the stigma associated with Borderline Personality Disorder. It is probably one of the last talked about (honestly) and explained from personal experience than any other mental illness. All these prompts have to do with characteristics of BPD, whether to do with specific symptoms and criteria of the illness or vague questions about items that are related to the illness, ex questions about specific relationships.
- Day 15: Have you ever changed your opinions, depending on the people you are with?
I used to never have a mind of my own, I would change my opinions all the time depending on the people I was around. It would irritate me, I felt that I had no sense of self or any idea what I wanted, or what I thought for myself. I would stick firm to an opinion and then I was easily convinced or persuaded to shift my opinions to those around me. Maybe I was afraid that I wouldn’t be liked if I thought differently? I’ve always been the nerd, the one that got picked on in high school. I always wanted to be like the “Cool Kids”, but was never accepted because of the way I dressed or what I looked like. SO, I started liking and thinking the same as those around me to fit in more. Colored my hair, dressed with more style, and agreed with my friends on everything. I never had a mind of my own. Until I was 25 years old. I think the last two years I have FINALLY started developing into who I am and was always supposed to be. The nerd, the goofball, the natural brunette, the girl with a mind of her own now. I have become more confident in the person that I truly am today, than I ever have been. Who cares about what others think. Stick to your own opinions, don’t let others make you feel that you have to be different to fit in. I always say,”Just be you.”